Maa

Tu pyar karti hai, chillati bhi hai..
Tu khyal rkhti hai, smjhati bhi hai.
Gussa karti hai aur khud hi maan jati hai..
Itni pyari qu hai tu... Maa?

Roz subha mujhe awaz deke uthana,
apne hatho se khana khilana..
Mere bhulne par wo cheeze yaad bhi dilati hai..
Raat ko sota hua dekhne mujhe, zarur ati hai.

Meri har galti ko maaf kia hai tune,
Maaf karke wapas vishwas bhi kia hai tune,
Papa ki maar se bachati hai tu..
mere lie papa se bhi lad jati hai tu.
Itni pyari?qu hai tu..maa.!

Mere ladkhadane par samhala hai tune,
Mere bar bar girne k baad bhi uthaya hai tune,
Ek Dost ki tarah sath me chalti hai tu mere,
Saya banke.. burai se bachaya bhi hai tune.

Bhagwaan ko dekha nahi hai kabhi,
Par lagta hai tu roop me aai hai uske.
Sabke dil me,
Foolo ki khushbu ki tarah.. sama gai ho jese.

Padhaya hai likhaya hai,
Har choti khwaish ko poora kia hai,
Mere bolne se pehle meri ankho ko kese padh leti hai tu?
Mujhe khush dekhne k lie..
Apni khushi bhi bhul jati hai tu.?

mazboot banaya hai tune,
Har raah par roshni dikhati hai mujhe.
Duniya ki itni museebato se bachaya hai tune,
Hath par kaala dhaaga bandh kar, chain paaya hai tune.
Nazar na lag jae kahi mujhe,
itna pyar qu karti hai tu... Maa?

Ehsaan nahi manungi tera,
Par 1 din wo sari khushiya tere kadmo k neeche hongi,
Utni hi khushi tujhe bhi hogi aur usse kahi zayada mujhe,
Qki pyar to mene bhi kia hai na tujhse,
Meri maa.

There is a light to this night.

Every evening she cried,

Every night she died.

She always used to search for love,

Got nothing in return but hurt.

She thanked god for her beautiful life,

Could not do anything but to put a fake smile.

Her friends loved her so much,

That they could do anything just to make her feel alright.

Was she sad or was she tired?

She did put her efforts but failed.

But, when the life seemed to be rough,

She gathered hope and tried to begin once again.

Do it for yourself, they said.

Everyone will follow you.

Nothing was there in any man,

That is not in you.

She asked,

Even if my life is black,

Can somebody put colors to it?

They said,

Black is the darkest color one can ever have,

But even a single drop of white,

Can make it fade.

She smiled every evening,

She felt alive.

Just from a single thought of love,

Could make her feel in colors and delight!

Once again, i stand before you.

Once again, I stand before you.

There is a deep river in my soul,

Which wants to have fishes and boats.

My body has become a barren land,

Which is thirsty to get water and plants.

Once again, I stand before you.

Asking answers to my questions

My world is a puzzle and I cannot find an open door.

Asking for the light in my darkest night,

Searching for a star in this empty sky.

I ask, where is my home?

Did you just leave me alone?

In this beautiful world full of happiness

I am lost and trying to find my soul!

What can a person do when everything is falling apart?

Is it a right choice for him to let go of his heart?

Or the choice should be whether to take a new start?

Once again, I stand before you.

Am I living with an empty heart?

Or is it just the soul who wants to leave my parts.

Should I confess that I want to be happy?

What would you think if I told you,

Emotions are just words to me now,

Feelings are just fading now.

I ask, why should I be the one to face this?

I ask, am I not trying enough to escape this?

You gave me an answer to struggle hard.

And this struggle is a lifetime task.

I am ready to face the world If you remain by my side

I am ready to accept the truth,

If you come and show me the other side

I am ready, if you take me and guide.

Once again, I stand before you.

Asking answers to my questions,

Searching a road for my life

Finding hope to fly high.

Because, It is you!

Is love a war which i want to win.

Or is it a life which i want to live?

It maybe a dream which i want to be true.

Or is it in my body which i want you to have too.?

Is it just a feeling which i am afraid to go through?

Or just a mere attachment which i have with you.

Is love in my brain or is it in my heart.

Deep inside the soul or just in my parts?

What is love? A person, feeling or a moment?

Should it be the one who gave me life,

Or is it with the one who kept me alive?

No, it is with the one who grew up with me.

Or is it just me who is trying to feel?

Emotions and sentiments which led it through.

Deep in my heart, somewhere i knew!

A feeling or an emotion which has to be true,

For a person I am attached to.

It is a mere word unless i feel it too.

So lets begin anew!

Because I believe,

Love is within you.

Lose your love, but not hope.

And I lost one more time in love,

Why do I even try?

I knew this time it wasn't meant to be,

But still I cried for him to stay where I wanted him to be.

It was all perfect from the beginning,

I ask, why does it had to end like this?

I cry for him and his love in front of you,

I say his name every now and then, and the other way through.

Wasn't someone there for me too?

I believe, he was the one to hold me tight,

I believe, he was the one to make me laugh until I die.

I believe and I believed, he was the one...

To make me feel alive.

I had to let him go, cause it wasn't the time to hold.

I had to say goodbye, cause there wasn't any way for us to say hi.

I had to make him sad, which anyway makes me mad.

But truely, I cherish him for being there for me,

Even when my last shine was almost covered with darkness,

He was the one to make me feel and pushed me to breathe.

I feel sad cause I know this is the end for us,

But happiness is, there is a new beginning waiting for him,

To rise and see the other side of the world.

Was black mine?

Is Black my new red?

Or its just darkness that I shred?

Have I ever been so numb?

 I couldn’t react when it was actually getting red!!

Dancing emotions led my sorrow

Full moon or the clouds which I followed?

Have I ever been so depressed?

Or its just my anger over my broken chest?!!

Everything is black but why not pink?

I like pink but it seem faded.

The colours raced out of my life

Faster than the rabbit beats tortoise.

Am I in depression or it’s just the colour black?

Is it the way I see the world or it always has.?

Questions are there but find me an answer

To erase my thoughts, to show  me the light

And I know that it is just not right..

So I might need to close my eyes,

As deep inside I know the Sun still shines so bright.!!

Lead  me to a brighter path and show me the colours

It is never too late to see the pink fade

Might turn out to be some other colour of my life..

Maybe black wasn’t the black which I made my choice.

But the choice I am making may turn my black into red,

Because it is never too late to see the morning shine

Always make a way through this lonely side of mine

Through the darkness there is always a sun which always shines

I had my moonlight and my sunshine,

Maybe it was the time to check what actually is mine

And soon I figured out that black wasn’t ever mine.