Was it a dream or did I just blink my eyes?

Right now, I prefer listening songs,
The voice in my head is growing strong.
I just wish to write and feel the peace inside my heart.
Don't feel like sharing things
My eyes go blur ,
My head starts to ache.
Off my chest, the armor fells down
And blood starts to race.I can't think now neither can I move my arms.
Something has frozen and it's not the cold night or the usual, moon's charm.
I think and I think,
Until I see it within.It's amid the famous battle,

again my heart and my mind,
Which seems harder to win.
Where is my soul? I ask.
What is the purpose? Baffled emotions emerged.
The only void it seemed like I have been here in my past.
As The dark Knight transpires,
I have to follow the light.
Only then can I quell my fears
Said the hope to my foggy eyes.And soon appears a beam of light,
Saying; good morning, my sunshine!
Waking up to this,
I started to write,

until I realized
that I was listening to the same songs for a while.

I took a gasp and rushed to check my open eyes,
Chills in my arms
The blood was subtle and so was the clear sky.this time I allowed myself to take a feel,

of what was happening for a little while.

Not an attachment, my love.

Give me a chance, my love
To make everything right,
I swear you won't regret it!
Give me a chance to make you believe
That I was the only one whom you thought to be your bride.
I swear you will remember it!
I am sinking in the ocean of love,
Waiting for you to give me a hand and let me swim with you;
I don't wanna die.
Take my hand and let me breathe for you,
With you, I am alive.
Won't you give me a chance for the reason you came into my life?
You say you don't love me,
It was an attachment for that time?
If it were like that,
Why do I still cry to be in your warm arms?
Why do I still miss you like crazy despite of knowing your thunder mood calls?
Why do I still feel that I could make everything alright?
You have left me and moved on saying it was a mutual decision to take.
I say,
I have moved on from the toxicity,
But still stuck in the love we had.
I have moved on from the darkness of it.
Still want to be in the day light of love, only with you.
I never wanted to leave you.
Still I did it for you..
And yet you call it an attachment.
Maybe I will live after I learn to swim on my own..
Maybe I will survive, after I cross the ocean once and for all.
But if it wasn't for love, I wouldn't have been thinking all along.
If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have been waiting all night long.
You were the reason for me to believe in love.
You were the reason for me to actually fall in love.
It was love for me oh darling,
It is the hope for your love which kept me thinking to swim across the ocean
To find you and see what it really feels,
To be alive.
Not to be Loved by you is my fate.
Now, I can still see my love growing in every breathe you take and every word you say.
My love feels alive,  by seeing your face.
By hearing your voice, by thinking your name.
It is the feeling I am left with.
It is not a mere attachment my love,
Or I had been long gone when I had several opportunities.
I had been long gone if I had to.
It is love, which is making me wait!
Even if it is not in my fate.
It is my love which keeps me alive.
Not you anymore who left seeing me dying.
It is my love for you which stays with me,
Even when you are gone for a different lifeline.
My love.